I wrote you a letter when I was drunk but I never gave it to you because I didn’t know if those words still meant the same thing to me sober, but the words were pretty and they were soft and they looked a lot like your face
I got to see these people who were my parent’s best friends long before I was born and were like my second family growing up. I grew up at the beach and saw them nearly every week and I never remember a time without them, but I haven’t seen them in over a year and then before that it was at least a few years. It’s really nice to see people like that again but it’s like I’ve grown up and matured so much that it’s like there’s this gap of so much lost information, but it was really good to see them. I miss them a lot, and I don’t think I realized how much it was until today.
Shells of Silver — The Japanese Popstars
Everybody wants love, but it’s not enough,
to have a good heart, but it’s not enough.
I’d like to think that the reason you drunk text me is because you miss me. That it’s just an excuse for you to talk to me. That it’s the only time you feel brave enough to break free from the constant urge to talk to me. That even though you have stubbornly kept quiet for a week, intoxication breaks down your barriers and you just want to hear my voice.
Lmao, I’m officially done with boy for a good while. It’s okay though because I have a lot going in my life with school right now so it’s probably for the best. If he wants to be with me, he’ll make it known. But I’m done until further notice and it actually feels really good.